While I have no experience in dating like some of my peers, I think there’s others out there who have a person who start as a friend then they try to schedule a lot of things with you or make plans when you need space. And then you start worrying that you’re leading them on romantically when you don’t feel the same. On one hand, you don’t want to come off being labelled as a ‘heartbreaker’ or ‘player’ for saying no but at the same time, you don’t want them to keep thinking that its okay to just like you more than a friend when you can’t reciprocate.
I’ve seen it happen to some friends and now I’m dealing with it. Maybe I’m reading too far into things but a part of me just needs space from this one friend who I met in the weirdest circumstances.
Let’s take a trip down Memory Lane so you can see how this spiraled to this point. I never met this guy, knew who he was, and his friends never mentioned him to me before. He asked to be my friend on Facebook out of the blue one day. I said no at first since I really didn’t know him. Ironically, I had a few days ago accepted a friend request from one guy in one of my classes who I vaguely remembered but quickly unfriended him when he hinted that he was looking for a fresh face to kick it with him and either smoke or drink, maybe a fling afterward. (Sorry Classmate, I’m not a floozy) Then the guy (who is now a friend) asked me again to be Facebook friends. I looked around his profile, thought about it, and saw that he seemed to not really have a group of stereotypical party girls as friends only, so I said yes. The first time I met this guy in person was when one of my friends dragged him along to Disneyland. A decent guy, I thought, but a bit wimpy when it came to roller coasters. He refused to get on California Screamin despite the safe restraints system. It’s tame compared to Six Flags with Goliath, The Riddler’s Revenge, and X2.
He and I hung out a bit after all of this. But other than him being an interesting older friend, I can’t see anything more happening. And if he happens to ever find this blog, well I want him to know that I’m sorry.